6.11.10
No substitute, sorry
16.10.10
Sixteen
Cc : Sukma Dwi Andrina, Nadira
From : Tassa Remisha
Date : October 13th 2010
Hai Egs,
This is your sister speaking. Since you have a new age, I got a couple things to say.
First of all, happy birthday! Yeiyyy! You’re 16 now. In fact you have lived in our blue planet for 16 years or 192 months or 768 weeks or 5840 days. Pretty amazing huh? Look at those numbers, you’re old girl! :p
Well anyway I’ve been in your age. So if you let me, I’m gonna share my experience a little bit about being 16.
Back in the days when I was 16, it was 8 years ago. I was a junior high teenager. Just like you. I still remember how it felt being a teenager. I know it’s not easy, with all those hormone things, boys, friends, parents etc. You’ll deal with lots of sappy-sad-gloomy times. But also you’ll feel happy, wonderful, fascinating about it. You will crash and burn yet you’ll rise and shine. It will be one of your best moments in your life. Trust me, you’d die to have all those moments back when you have reached my age.
In the end I just want to put this final note: Enjoy your life, enjoy being 16, taste every single piece of it. Rise and Shine dear egitotss
With love
Your rempong sister
Tassa
PS: I guess you still have a few more years to be Justin Bieber's no.1 fan, as you’re getting older, you gotta find another idol :D
2.10.10
A slap in the face
The rain was pouring down. I was on my way home from my work as I listened to a dashing song from one of my favorite local indie bands, The sigit. A song called " Live in New York".
If I could live in New York
If only I could live in New York
A couple minutes later, my blackberry rung for incoming message. It was from my friend, delivered me a horrendous news; a friend of ours just got a job in New York. Yes! New York honey! N-E-W-Y-O-R-K. The big apple.
and.. I was shocked. It was like a slap in the face. A wake up call. A oh-my-God moment. Then I fell silent. I couldn't wrap my mind around. It flew here and there. I'm happy for her but also jealous. One sentence was hanging on my mind; I am so left behind..
I need to do something. I need to aim higher. I need to try harder. And it starts from now.
The game is on. The pressure is coming down.
Do you think I stressed out?
I admit it, I am..
But sometimes feeling stressed out is the best trigger to uplift your spirit. Spirit to conquer the world. Spirit to defeat anything and become the champion of your own competition.
To reach your dreams.
So buckle your seat belt fellas. Flare your flame up. Go win your own war. No matter how painful, no matter how hard.
ps: I don't know why but I believe that someday I will be able to step my feet on New York and being able to sing "I'm an Indonesian woman in New York :P
17.9.10
The Beautiful Escape
Before I tell you my story during the Karimun Jawa trip, let me first share my thought about traffic in Jakarta. This could be my umpteenth time to complain about how ridiculous traffic in Jakarta is. The schedule for the bus to depart was at 7 pm. So I left the office at exact 5 pm, consider that it will take 2 hours from my office to the bus station. I thought I was doing fine. But I was wrong. The traffic was way too horrible. It took almost 3 hours to the Rawamangun bus station. I really hate Jakarta at that time. Gosh! It made me sick, seeing all those cars creeping around on the road like a bunch of caterpillars. Dear Lord please help me :p
Ok enough about I-stuck-in-a-traffic-jam-please-help-me-God story. Let's go to the main story.
I arrived at the island at about 2 pm, had a quick lunch and prepared myself to go snorkeling right after. We (I and the 23 others of my new friends) took a boat to discover the island.
First stop: Menjangan besar. Because this was my first time to go snorkeling, I didn't prepare myself good enough. I didn't wear my contact lens and since i have an eye sight of -4.75, I was totally blind. I felt like an idiot. While others of my friends astonished, amazed, dumb founded by the beauty of the underwater life, I didn't see a thing. Not even a single thing. My sight was bleary and unclear. Sucks huh?
The next day, I didn't want to make the same mistakes. The plan was still the same; snorkeling and discover the islands. I prepared myself well, wore my contacts and yes I was so ready to rumble baby hah. The island to discover was Cemara Besar. It took about 1 hour to reach the island from my inn.
One hour has passed and the next thing I knew that my eyes were staring at one of the most beautiful views I've ever seen in my entire life. The sight that will stay on my mind forever.
Suddenly a phone call woke me up from my nap. It was from my mom, asking what time will I arrive at Jakarta. Apparently I fell asleep during my way home from Karimun Jawa. And that was it.
As my time passed on my way home, so was my dream.
Guess I have to go back to the reality, back to the day to day routines, and accept the fact that I have to deal with obnoxious thing like this
So please help me God :)
26.8.10
22.8.10
Equilibrium
there is a thing called equilibrium
You are my equilibrium
You balance me
21.8.10
Saat ibadah dipertanyakan
Apakah kita benar-benar tulus menyembah pada-NYA
Atau mungkin kita hanya takut pada neraka dan inginkan surga
Jika surga dan neraka tak pernah ada, masihkan kau sujud kepada-NYA?
Rangkaian lirik lagu di atas membuat saya berpikir, selama ini apa benar saya sudah tulus menyembah Dia Tuhan Penguasa Alam? Apa saya sudah ikhlas? Atau saya hanya sekedar beribadah saja, tanpa tahu tujuan beribadah itu sendiri?
Atau saya beribadah karena takut? Takut akan neraka dan lupa bahwa tujuan penciptaan dari umat manusia adalah semata untuk menyembah-NYA?
Renungkanlah kawan,
Selamat berpuasa..
(QS: Az-Dzariat 51:56)
"Katakanlah: Sesungguhnya Shalatku, Ibadahku, Hidupku dan Matiku hanya untuk Allah Tuhan Semesta Alam"
(QS: Al An-Am 6:162)
17.8.10
Pahlawan Kesiangan
Dia telat bangun pagi
24.7.10
burpp
terjebak dalam ruang dingin gelap dan lembab
barat selatan timur utara
buntu
burrpp aahhh
akhirnya terlepas
oleh sendawa yang membawa nikmat
20.7.10
Sulap Gagal
16.7.10
Label called education
When I graduated from my university 1 year ago, I asked myself, what have I got from my education? All those theories, curriculum, scores, does it really count in a working world? Will the theory I've learned could help me in solving problems at work?
I studied economic. After I graduated, to be honest I didn't feel I know that much about economics. Is this because I was too lazy to study? Well not really (self-defense :P). I think I was doing pretty good as a college student. I got great GPA, graduated on time while many others of my friends took a longer year. But after I entered the working world, I feel all the knowledge I got back on college did not really count. I had to learn from the beginning. Then again, I asked myself, What's the use of education?
I don't have any good great answer to that question. Or maybe you can answer that question for me? All I know and I believe for sure that education is important. It really is. As William Allin puts it "Education is not the anwer of all the question. Education is the means of the answer of all the question"
Tamu yang diundang
ternyata beliau baru bisa datang bulan depan
aah padahal saya sudah sangat muak dengan suami saya
12.7.10
26.6.10
being selfish
I am not God who does not make any mistakes
It is understandable if someone hate me that much
I am a normal human being who can't make everybody happy
but please..give me a break
I deserve to have my own decision
I deserve to choose
YOU! nothing but pain in the ass
tekanan darah meningkat
senyuman hilang berganti kernyitan di dahi
pada satu titik hilang kendali
itu semua karena satu hal..YOU!
20.6.10
Lip Service
Sungguh lucu bagaimana kata-kata juga bisa membuat seorang wanita terpuruk, hilang harga dirinya dan merasa seakan jatuh ke dalam jurang paling dalam hingga tak mampu lagi menghadapi hari esok.
The message here are.. If someone (particularly a man) say something sweet to you, that is too sweet to be true, be happy but don't take it too seriously. And If someone say something bad to you that make you mad, sad,whataver.. let it go..
Because words are only a bunch of letters honey
They do not deserve to fail you nor make you sad
12.6.10
Obnoxious
One word that has been on my mind lately
I smell factious
I smell rottenness
Don't be such a naive
Wake up and smell the reality
Question Mark
I am now at some point where I am questioning my life. What have I done in my life so far? Was that enough? Have I achieved something? What is my purpose of life? Sometimes I think that whether I am walking on the right path or not. Am I walking on the right track? Track that will at the end deliver me to the happy ending. It’s not that I am a sad-miserable-pathetic-desperate-for-love-affection-attention-kind-of person. I am happy about my life at the moment (pretty much). I feel happiness. I do.
But I want more..
One day I watched a movie called “3 idiots”. One of the characters on the film said “ Life is a race, if you don't run fast ,you'll left behind" Then I started to think. Am I left behind? Sometimes I feel that way. It is a normal feeling though. At my age right now,I feel I haven’t achieved anything big. I do have a wonderful family, I do have a job, I do have friends. But is that all enough? Can I ask for more?
I want a great career. I want to take a post graduate program. I want to have a great love life. I want to travel around the world. I want to be able to contribute something to the world or at least to my society or to my family. I want this.. I want that..bla bla..and so on and so on
Will God mad at me for being ungrateful?
Is it?
5.6.10
enough said
That's the kind of person worth sticking with"
(Mac Mcguff from "JUNO")
Well in my case, obviously kinda hard to find that kind of person at the moment haha. enough said.
India it is..
but if i can narrow down to one reason why I really want to go to this country, it's all because of this man..
Call me shallow or not grown up or immature or anything..I don't care. I'm just crazy over Mr Aamir Khan. End of story.
2.6.10
27.5.10
Write..Write..Write..
But things changed. Right now i feel the euphoria to write. There are so many things in my mind that I would like to share. And now I am ready to be judge, I am ready to accept whatever advices,critics and comments.
There are many reasons that motivate someone (particularly myself) to write. In my opinion the reasons are:
- Writing could be some kind of therapy. It releases tension. When I feel so upset, I write, and I feel much better after doing it. When I feel happy, I write and it makes me feel happier.
- Writing forces me to keep thinking. It's not easy to make something acceptable to read. It is hard at the beginning. I didn't know what to write, I didn't know how to write. But this whole thing is the learning process that requires me to keep think.
- Writing means that I record my history, I record the story of my life. My writing is my product, my work, my creation.
"Either write something worth reading or do something worth writing"
-Ben Franklin