being selfish

It is understandable if someone get hurt by the things I've said or done
I am not God who does not make any mistakes

It is understandable if someone hate me that much
I am a normal human being who can't make everybody happy

but please..give me a break

I deserve to have my own decision
I deserve to choose

YOU! nothing but pain in the ass

angkara murka membuncah

tekanan darah meningkat

senyuman hilang berganti kernyitan di dahi

pada satu titik hilang kendali

itu semua karena satu hal..YOU!

Lip Service

Sungguh lucu bagaimana kata-kata bisa membuat seorang wanita berbunga-bunga,merasa menjadi orang paling bahagia di dunia dan lupa pernah mengalami keadaan yang bernama kesedihan

Sungguh lucu bagaimana kata-kata juga bisa membuat seorang wanita terpuruk, hilang harga dirinya dan merasa seakan jatuh ke dalam jurang paling dalam hingga tak mampu lagi menghadapi hari esok.


The message here are.. If someone (particularly a man) say something sweet to you, that is too sweet to be true, be happy but don't take it too seriously. And If someone say something bad to you that make you mad, sad,whataver.. let it go..

Because words are only a bunch of letters honey
They do not deserve to fail you nor make you sad

Obnoxious

Obnoxious

One word that has been on my mind lately

I smell factious

I smell rottenness

Don't be such a naive

Wake up and smell the reality

Question Mark

I am now at some point where I am questioning my life. What have I done in my life so far? Was that enough? Have I achieved something? What is my purpose of life? Sometimes I think that whether I am walking on the right path or not. Am I walking on the right track? Track that will at the end deliver me to the happy ending. It’s not that I am a sad-miserable-pathetic-desperate-for-love-affection-attention-kind-of person. I am happy about my life at the moment (pretty much). I feel happiness. I do.

But I want more..

One day I watched a movie called “3 idiots”. One of the characters on the film said “ Life is a race, if you don't run fast ,you'll left behind" Then I started to think. Am I left behind? Sometimes I feel that way. It is a normal feeling though. At my age right now,I feel I haven’t achieved anything big. I do have a wonderful family, I do have a job, I do have friends. But is that all enough? Can I ask for more?

I want a great career. I want to take a post graduate program. I want to have a great love life. I want to travel around the world. I want to be able to contribute something to the world or at least to my society or to my family. I want this.. I want that..bla bla..and so on and so on

Will God mad at me for being ungrateful? Is it wrong if I want to have everything in my life? Is it wrong if I become ambitious? Is it wrong for always running and doesn't pay attention to others?

Is it?

enough said

This quote from my favorite film is just really amazing. An advice from a father to his young daughter.

"Look in my opinion the best thing you can do is find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood,bad mood,ugly,pretty,handsome, what you have. The right person is still going to think the sun shines out your **s.
That's the kind of person worth sticking with"
(Mac Mcguff from "JUNO")

Well in my case, obviously kinda hard to find that kind of person at the moment haha. enough said.

India it is..

If someone asks me, "Which country that you would like to visit the most?" I would definitely answer INDIA. It's like my biggest dream to visit the second most populated country in the world. India somehow attracts me in a way I can't describe. Its culture, its people, its ancient building, its history and so on. Taj mahal, Bollywood, Indian dancing, Saree etc. Anything about India.. just bring it to me darl :P

but if i can narrow down to one reason why I really want to go to this country, it's all because of this man..

Call me shallow or not grown up or immature or anything..I don't care. I'm just crazy over Mr Aamir Khan. End of story.

Negative

I'm a castaway

stranded in the middle of nowhere
I wish I could
gone
vanish
disappear